"...procesos de de desclasificación [...] dejamos de ser lo que representamos y dejamos de hacer lo que nos está asignado y nos mostramos capaces de una voz y una acción que ni teníamos ni nos era legítima. [...] dejar de estar "clasificados", es decir, organizados socialmente en clases o categorías."

(Marina Garcés talking about Jacques Rancière)

this is why I always attracted to the idea of mess, 

messing things up like shuffling cards around on a table, 

it can be liberating and inclusive to confront these fears, 

this is what my book is about, messing up public space (and this is why my book never ends), 

when I was in elementary school I liked telling my classmates that my initials spelled MES, 

the person who marries outside their ethnicity or economic class, 

the high school student who gets accepted to an ivy league but chooses community college instead or accepts but sends his/her identical twin instead, 

the straight man who majors in women and gender studies, 
wearing gym clothes to an interview, 

finding platonic love with a cat, 
(there's always a cat)

the cereal boxes that were stocked upside down and in the wrong aisle, 

the neurosurgeon who reduces his/her hours in order to take a part-time job as a migrant cropper, 

the white-haired colleague who doesn't check email, 

the CEO who falls in love with an incarcerated person who is physically paralyzed, 

the meeting room with no tables or chairs, 

the person walking on the side of the highway to get to/from the grocery store, 

glitches, 

typos carved in stone, 

misprnounced

wabi sabi

dad has a camera on his cellphone now
so now I receive little gifts like this one
I've been reading about the Japanese aesthetic philosophy of "wabi sabi" and I can relate to it very much as a general way of life, I've found a little validation for some of my thoughts that often make me feel like the odd one out in this aggressive human ego competition that seeks perfection and superiority over one's fellow human being. I've always been fascinated with imperfection.
For me wabi sabi means resistance, kindness, difference, honesty.
Wabi sabi is an appreciation for and recognition of the fleeting imperfections and dependency in and around us:

"Wabi sabi embodies the nihilistic cosmic view and seeks beauty in the imperfection found in all things, in a constant state of flux, evolve from nothing and devolve back to nothing. Within this perpetual movement nature leaves arbitrary tracks for us to contemplate and it is these random flaws and irregularities that offer a model for the modest and humble. [. . . ] It embodies the melancholic appeal of the impermanence of all things. [. . . ] Impermanence, humility, asymmetry, and imperfect. These underlying principles are diametrically opposed to those of their Western counterparts, whole values are rooted in a Hellenic worldview that values permanence, grandeur, symmetry, and perfection..."
-A. Juniper