What's hard about being a cultural spectator is that it makes you fall in love with humanity, makes you feel big feelings and makes you dream of big things. And reality is the opposite. So you have to mediate these two.
(Nota Bene: if a reader is here: please don't take these posts seriously, they are half-fiction, written for myself for an imaginary audience, and some are decades old, if I had time to go back and read them, I'd probably delete or modify most of them)
